Food Journal

Starting with last nights dinner, we had pasta in tomato sauce with ground beef. I had a 3/4 cup serving alongside a bowl of salad with nuts, croutons, lettuce, tomatoes, and carrots. Eating these things I felt somewhat disgusted, as I grow ever more tired with eating beef and meat products. I felt healthier eating the salad, because of the lower amount of calories and the lighter feel in my stomach. I ate with a fork in my right hand, using the same fork for the salad then the pasta. It was just me alone at the table as my sister watched TV and my mother was getting ready for work.

This morning I had a chocolate doughnut from a street vendor, feeling guilty about it but needing to stave off the hunger and to get my metabolism going in the morning. The problem is I never feel hungry and so I often skip breakfast although I hear that it is unhealthy to do so, that your metabolism will automatically accept our lunch and store it as fat because of missing breakfast. I brought it into school in a brown paper bag and opened it up in class. Marco asked me for a bite of it and so I offered him half. I ate my half with my right hand, elbows on the table, waiting for class to begin.

For lunch today I had the school lunch version of meatballs and garlic bread, with chocolate milk. I ate this rather disdainfully as the rubbery meatballs tried very desperately to not be eaten, and the garlic bread turned out to be actual sliced white bread with bits of garlic stuck to it. The chocolate milk is a guilty pleasure because it tastes good at the cost of being high in calories. I know I could always go for the healthier white milk, but I really detest regular milk and drink it sparingly. I ate this with a plastic fork in my right hand, with my hands for the bread. We talked at lunch about a few scattered things but mostly we just played the movie game.

Afterschool I had the Make Your Own Choices meeting where we all snacked on gummy fruit snacks and cookies, all washed down with apple juice. While we were doing so me and Chloe remarked on how fat that would make us look in this very assignment. Oh well. It was a happy thing because it was a reprieve from school and exhibitions, so we indulged a little bit. It just means I have to hit the gym harder tomorrow.

For dinner, my friend surprised us and brought over McDonald's cheeseburgers and chicken sandwiches. Eager to replace the beef in my diet, I went for the latter. I ate it feeling happier because of the taste, but greasier because of the...grease. After this I sat down and have been doing my exhibition since. And coughing. I ate the food with my hands, absentmindedly chewing while thinking about more important things in my head.

I have just finished eating a chicken cutlet sandwich from the deli down the block. It was delicious, and I feel at leas a small bit healthier because it was deli food and not fast food. I figure it must be at least a little better for me. I ate it in my two hands alone at my laptop while working on my exhibition and so I savored the taste as I tried to focus on finishing my work.