Okay, so I understand I was late with the first blog. sorry about that. Work tired me out, but now I'm posting up.
1. What ideas or feelings do you find yourself focusing on these days?
Identity is a big one, something that has come up for me a lot. I see that highschool is a lot about identifying yourself, who you are, what you are, and I see that it is a very impressionable time for adolescents. This means that I see many different guiding factors attempting to shape my mind into what they believe I should be. Teachers, parents, and peers all have their ideas about how we should be, and so all choose to convince the others that their own view is correct. This is where I value having a summer job, something to take me away from these influences and lets me get a perspective from outside this school bullshit. I know now better than I ever could exaclty who I am. Ask me in person, though, It may get lengthy and tangential.
2. 2. Its weird that school deeply structures your life for 9.5 months - from 7am-3:10pm you're dealing with school and beyond that, with homework and projects. Then all of a sudden you're in summer vacation and have no institutional structure. How does the contrast feel to you? Does family/capitalist-labor/etc conquer the area that the school has temporarily abdicated, leaving you no freer than before or do you have more freedom? Have you been enjoying your time? Are there aspects of school that you miss? Are there aspects of school that you're particularly glad to have a break from? How are you filling/wasting/enjoying the extra time you now have?
To be honest, although I am trapped in the capitalist machine as a slave, erm, rather, a "laborer", things are ok for me. I'm at the point in my life where I do not yet have to pay rent or bills, so any money I earn is strictly for my own recreational use. Fucked up part is, I work 12 hours a day or more 6 days a week to get it. Also, I get treated like a dog. Or not even, because dogs are pet and stroked and coddled. I get treated like a NYC rat. I'm 17 so I get no respect from coworkers or employers, and I'm a laborer so I get no respect from clients. I hate that part so very much. There are a few workers who I actually look forward to working with, though, people who make the job bearable. I miss seeing some friends everyday, but I like independence to make plans whenever I really want.
3. How many hours a week would you be willing to put towards reading an easyish novel that we were all reading? How many hours a week would you be willing to put towards reading a hardish essay that we were all reading? How many combined?
6:5: 11
4. What is a small - 2-7 hour long - adventure that you'd enjoy doing with the rest of us? For instance - make a short film, go to Rockaway Beach, walk on the Appalachian Trail. see a strange movie?
Short film, i already have a script. Beach day, though coney island, strange movie, yes. Also, visit the freedom tunnel and sit around in a circle or a bonfire sharing stories + making memories.
5. Will you be able to meet in the City for the whole summer or do you have a planned excursion for part of the summer - if so, when?
I'm working all summer for now, though i may go to ireland for a couple weeks late august, haven't decided yet.
6.6. What else would you be interested to address or read other peoples' thoughts on?
Everyones stories, small or large. Also, deep insightful group heart to hearts where we grow connected as individuals.
1 comment:
gavin,
makes sense that stepping outside the school game helps you see that the role you play there is a distorted one.
are you saying that you've stepped outside of that particular scene and have a little more insight - or that in this new (working class dude) scene that you've found the "real you"?
a shame they play the dis game there - giving people shit seems to be a part of that culture. i imagine the male chimps do it too.
can you bring your script this time or the next?
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